You, O Lord, keep my lamp burning; my God turns my darkness into light. Psalm 18:28
Monday, March 5, 2012
What to do? What to do?
I know I haven't posted anything in a while, but I shall today. Where should I start? Well, first off my life is horrible at the time being. My parents are fighting lots and I can't do anything about it. It makes me so frustrated. Being the person that I am, I want to try and help everyone, but I simply can't help this. It's bugging the poop out of me. Secondly, lots of my friends are going through some hard times as well. Again, I can't do anything about it. All I can do is try and comfort them and pray for them. I mean praying is a powerful thing and I'm glad that I can at least do that much, but it's hard. It's hard for them, their families, and me. I think the thing that is most affecting my life right now is my fry. :/ He and I are so close and I'm afraid I'm going to lose him. Everyone is saying that he is only stepping back in the youth group not my life, but I see him most at youth and I'm worried that sooner or later we wont be as good as fries as we are now. And I don't want that to happen! At all! :/ I can't lose another person in my life, if I do, then I'm basically gonna die. I have already lost some other people and I just can't. Everyone is also saying, "It's going to be okay." But they don't understand. I wasn't bawling last night for the fun of it. I was bawling because this is a HUGE change in my life. And I love change and all, but some of it I hate. Like I hated the change when my parents split up, I hated the change when two of my best friends went to college, and I'm hating this change now! I don't know what to do! Like I have cried so much this past week and I feel like that's the only thing I can do. I have amazing friends helping me and they are there for me, but like I'm so confused. A lot of people yesterday were like just going on like everything was okay and nothing had happened, but something did happen and I can't just ignore it! I don't know, all I know is that I'm confused! :/ Well, last night through my tears I found the Bible verse Hebrews 13:5. And part of it really stuck with me. "...Never will I leave you; never will I forsake you."
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